melancholy life

"wanting him to love me is like wanting a snow in a summer"- impossible.

I've always wished to have something that I know I can't even touch.

I'm so stupid, I didn't even notice that fairy tales never happens, that our story is not ours, it is only mine, he was just another character but not the main one. What hurts more is the fact that I lose this game again, I cannot own his whole heart, even a piece of it.

I used to be happy while chatting and texting to him but the happiness I felt was all a mistake, I just gave myself a false hope. But I can't blame myself for feeling that way, because I thought it was a "once upon a time" in the beginning, I'm correct but it is not a "happily ever after" in the end".

yeah, there are many man in the whole world, but he is the only man in my own world. And without him, I'll live my melancholy life all alone.

I'll be happy for him, maybe I'll pretend at first but I swear, I will be alright even everything turns out as crap. XD